the thoughts I'd be thinkin'
A few weeks ago I started to write this and never finished it:
"I was looking at my hair in the mirror in the car today. I looked at the basic brown, at the deep auburn highlights, at the bright silver. in the sunlight, it all glowed together - and I thought: I should do the same with my mind as I do with my hair. Everything should show."
It's been too long, and I no longer recall the ending I intended, so I figured I'd just post it as is. As I do, though, I realize that even though I had that thought weeks ago, I didn't follow through at all. I'm still trying, and it's even harder now than it would have been then. The trouble with trying to live that way, I think, is this: the hair is naturally exposed, but the mind is naturally hidden - and takes every possible step it can to hide itself further. Anyway - I didn't think of it then, but the highlights in your hair only come out under the light. That's what I need: another sun - to shine inside my head.